17June // Today, I synced all our previous photos from my dslr and previous phone into my iphone. I cried so badly while looking at the photos. I miss you so badly, not that strong as I thought I was. 16June, I send you two long messages, but I got ignored totally, not even a reply. You don't know how much that hurts. It felt like all along your love was a lie maybe. The joke is on me for loving you so much. I mentioned that I'm not gonna bother you anymore, but words are so easy to say. I just miss you so badly. I act like i'm strong enough, but actually i'm losing myself, dying a little on the inside. I don't wanna feel this way anymore. It's ruining everything of me. Who really understands this feeling? No one at all. I wish you could read my blog, but at the same time no. Cos I will still be see as that pathetic clingy little girl in your eyes. Don't know when will be the next time i see your name lighting up on my name, don't know when i will ever see you again, don't know when i will ever hear your voice again. Will we ever get back? If only you could read my heart, you will most probably be in tears. I miss everything about you, but still you're gone.
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