After so long, i'm back here again.
You, yes you. I miss you so badly. Everything about you. I don't know if this is considered a breakup. But life sucks without you. No texts, no calls no more seeing of you. I love you so much, but i guess it wasn't enough for you to stay. You were always there for me, be it the happy or sad times. You will always be the first one that i wanna share everything with. I still remembered our ninenth month of not being officially together, we went Timbre. And you asked me to be your girlfriend along with nine roses cos you know i love flowers and it was also our nine month. I wish that moment could last for eternity.
Ever since poly started, things changed. Sometimes, things between us were rocky, sometimes it was smooth. Despite all this, it's still you. But i guess time and distance changed your heart, and you probably was sick of all these shit that happened between us. I'm the fool who continued to love you wholeheartedly despite that we were of different schools now.
A few days back, you suggested a breakup. It was so sudden, i can't take it. It sucks to be crying and breaking down while doing my assignments halfway, or even shower time. Everything i do, you just appeared in my head. Going to school looking like a zombie and everything.This heartbreak really sucks so badly. I wish i could rewind time and change away everything. I wish i could still be the girl you once love so much. I wish i could still wake up to a morning with your good morning texts, and fall asleep at night with a goodnight text from you. I wish things between us never changed. I wish we didn't went to different schools.
No texts, no calls, nothing from you. And so I took the initiative and I got ignored most of the times. It hurts badly to be ignored by the one you love. At times, I feel dejected, and just really wanna go fuck this, let it go. But i know my heart can't. And that's why i tried times and times again. You are worth it, worth the fight, that's what i always tell myself. But how long can i stay strong for? Afterall, i'm still human. I have feelings too..... It sucks to fall asleep with a heavy heart.
